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July 7th, 2010

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Many published novels consist of only a fraction of the words and scenes generated by the writer. The published version of The Book of Love emerged from roughly two hundred thousand words of drafts and redrafts to a svelte eighty three thousand. Many scenes and characters fell to the floor unused, usually because the plot moved in different directions or scenes were cut because they served no purpose or they were rewritten from another character’s point of view in order to better understand what was happening. The Book of Love had many different endings before I selected the one now in print. I’m going to share some of these unused scenes in an occasional series – From The Editing Crypt.

The following scenes show what could have happened if William had believed Robbie’s version of events and the book recovered from the farmhouse in Lucca was not a fake and Sebastian had never followed Lily to Italy. William, having nabbed the book at the farmhouse, returns to the police headquarters in Lucca where Robbie tells him Lily is returning to Sydney with him. William returns to Rome and gives the book to the Culture and Heritage division of the carabinieri - not to Weston’s - and believing Robbie, flies home to London. Lily also believes Robbie’s lies – that William was using her to get the book back - until Robbie lets slip that he’d spoken to William in Lucca and told him that Lily didn’t love him. Realising why William has gone she decides to fly to London and tell him the truth.

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The passengers wore their closed up faces. Tapping keyboards, flicking pages, rummaging in bags, all waited for the boarding call. Lily hoped she was doing the right thing. The idea of going home to Sydney and never seeing William again appeared absurd now. It wasn’t the way this should end.

Only the unlucky died young, horoscopes preyed on the dreams of the powerless and you could pass a soul mate on a busy street and never know - sharing a current of air, maybe a curious glance, and then gone. Ahead of you a lifetime of compromise for which no fairytale prepared you. Fate was a con. There was only her and she had to act. If she were wrong about William then humiliation and hurt would be the worst she’d suffer. Those would pass in time.

Rome to London was not a long flight compared to flying anywhere from Australia, so the claustrophobic feeling of endlessly circling the globe in a pressurized cigar didn’t weigh too heavily. Besides Lily was preoccupied with thoughts of what she was about to do. After the folderol at Heathrow of customs and immigration, she headed to the nearest newsagent to buy a map of London and the Underground. People rushed past, but in no hurry herself she dawdled along following signs to the free bus service that would take her to the airport Holiday Inn.

In her bland hotel room she laid the map out on the bed and examined it. William appeared to live in a part of London she had never been to, Bermondsey, near London Bridge. A far cry from leafy Muswell Hill in North London, where she and Robbie had always stayed with Sebastian’s ex girlfriend. Lily juggled the map around, peering at it closely and making notes on a piece of paper - Heathrow to Acton Town, change to the District Line, change at Westminster for the Jubilee line, then off at Bermondsey. Down this road, then left into that road then right here, then slump on the bed and wonder what the hell she was doing.

He might be horrified to see her. He would be at his most polite and BBC- ish. ‘Lily, how nice to see you, yes, we must catch up.’ All the time backing away thinking, ‘How did that tart find me?’ He would turn and walk away. No, no, he would turn and look at Tawny Knickers who, insatiable for foreplay with a gun, had flown over from Rome to be his lover, and they would exchange horrified looks, a wisp of Fatal Attraction in the air. Lily would never boil a bunny, but they didn’t know that.

She sat up, tore the Underground map off the larger map, and folded it with her notes and put it in her handbag. Then, after a quick moment, stuffed the whole map in her bag. She laid out her dress and went to bed with the British Woman’s Weekly Best Ever Jam Recipes supplement.

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‘William, come in.’

The mahogany paneling gave off a dull glow. Shelves of art books lined the room, and a small Francis Bacon hung on the wall. The smell of money and coffee lingered in the air. Thomas gestured for William to take a seat. ‘Good to have you back in one piece.’ He sat forward staring intently at William’s forehead. ‘Make sure you put in a claim for that. I’m sorry to hear things got so nasty.’

William shrugged, ‘These things happen.’

‘Quite.’ Thomas leaned back in his leather chair and looked at his watch. A young man with a flop of hair over one eye brought in a tray carrying two gold-rimmed cups and saucers brimming with coffee, a pot of sugar, and a small jug of cream.’

‘There are some issues with this ah … last retrieval.’

William said nothing as he stirred his coffee.

‘Do you know how much we were paid to get that book back? And you give it away? Of course the Italians are thrilled with our largesse, but it wasn’t your decision to make.’

‘No, it wasn’t. But-‘

‘If we run about retrieving artworks and giving them gratis to museums we will be out of business. No one will hire a company who gives away the assets they are hired to retrieve. You’re not fucking Robin Hood, you know.’

William smiled and sipped his coffee, replacing the fine porcelain cup in the saucer with a chink.

‘You want to be careful the client doesn’t slip a horses head into your bed,’ Thomas continued with a snort. ‘They’re furious upstairs, absolutely outraged. Weston’s comes out looking like a responsible corporate citizen, returning national treasure, yes, but where’s the money?’
He waited for a response from William then continued after a faint sigh.

‘Got one in Barcelona for you, same collection. A cache of statues. That’s if you want to go head to head with the lads from Sicily,’ he said. ‘No pun intended. And bring the wretched things home with you, don’t donate them to the Prado.’

‘No, thank you, Thomas. I’ve had enough. I’m resigning from today.’

Thomas blinked and said nothing for a moment as he studied William. ‘More money?’
‘No. Burnt out.’

‘Back to Collection Management? Because your name is shit at the moment, and I don’t think they’ll have you.’

‘No.’ William shook his head. ‘Out all together.’

‘Can we talk about it? Have a drink with me later and …no?’

‘I have some business in Australia, urgent business. So if we can get the paperwork out of the way…’

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Lily found her way to the street that held his apartment. Fear prickled her insides. It was tempting to turn around and go back. She found the right house number and looked up. It was not a house but the upstairs flat of an Art Deco building from the nineteen thirties. No doubt the interior was all polished wood and stainless steel with empty spaces, lots of sleek, camouflaged technology and one image on the wall - a black and white Mapplethorpe photo of the back of someone’s head, perhaps. The bed would be half a white cube and a television screen would be mounted on the ceiling above. All would be cool and contained.

It was early, around eight am, and she knocked on the door. She saw the buzzer for his flat and pressed it. No answer. Swallowing with difficulty, she tried again. Still no answer. Maybe he was asleep? Her shoulders tensed. He had to be there. If he’d never left Italy she was wasting time, money and valuable heart space.

Her fall back plan was to try Weston’s in Little Bond Street. Searching London in a summer dress with nothing but a thin beaded cardigan and kitten heeled sandals smacked of poor judgment. An English spring was not like the Italian spring. Her teeth chattered and a little voice whispered, ‘Give up, think of warm and cosy Heathrow, a standby air ticket back to Australia, cosseting by the cabin crew, hot towels, free gin and tonic, warm blankets.’

There was no answer, no matter how many times she buzzed. He wasn’t there. She took the piece of paper with the Weston’s address out of her bag, and her Underground map and studied them. If she got on at Bermondsey she could get off at Bond Street without needing to change lines, and a short stroll should take her to Weston’s. Maybe he’d gone to work, but as far as she knew he was on contract and it very unlikely he’d have an office there. However they could get a message to him. She’d come all this way; she had to give it her best shot.

The offices of Weston’s were as expected, the Fiona’s were all around her, only not plump with pearls, but sleek in tight suits with their sexy heels sinking into lush carpet, their haughty faces reflected in the polished mahogany. The girl at reception stared at Lily’s beaded cardigan and sandals. What could a raggedy boho want with Weston’s? Must be one of the cleaning staff. Lily blinked and raised her chin. In the coldest voice she could muster she said, ‘Lily Trevennen, I’m here to see William Isyanov.’

The girl raised a perfectly plucked eyebrow. ‘I’ll check if he’s in.’ She tapped a few buttons and spoke into her headset while Lily drifted across the foyer to look closely at a painting. She didn’t like the painting, but wanted to appear unconcerned.

The girl glanced over at her trying to disguise a giggle into her headset. She was probably saying, ‘One of Will’s indiscretions has turned up,’ or ‘You should see what she’s wearing …’

‘I’m sorry, Miss, er…’

Lily didn’t answer.

‘Mr Isyanov is away at present. Would you care to leave a message, or can we help…in any other way?’ She said this as if it were highly unlikely.

‘No. Thank you.’ Lily hesitated, then asked, ‘Is your name Prudence or Fiona?’

‘I beg your pardon?’

Lily turned back to the front door. ’Never mind.’ No way would she leave a letter for William with that girl. She’d probably take it to the staff room and have a good titter with the office staff at lunchtime.

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Unable to lie there any longer, William turned the music off, left the flat and walked up the road in the cold morning air. At the newsstand he scanned the headlines and realised he couldn’t give a toss about the rest of the world. Sitting in his flat, alone with his thoughts held no appeal, so he kept walking up to the Thames. He would go and book an airline ticket to Sydney today. No point in waiting until he felt better, he could be dizzy and nauseous on a plane, just as he could at home. And he wouldn’t come back without her. At the Thames embankment he turned around and started back.

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She buzzed his door again, and again there was no answer. With the letter in her hand she walked across the road and looked up at the window of his flat one more time. Then she saw him, tall and lean and lovely, his face still battered, but the black eye had gone down and he appeared able to see. He’d turned the corner and was looking down at the pavement; hands in the pockets of a black woollen jacket. And Tawny Knickers was not with him.

Lily wanted to run across the quiet street and hurl herself at him, and despite her fear and uncertainty, she smiled with the sheer pleasure of seeing him. He looked up, saw her smiling at him and stopped, a look of shock on his face. Lily crossed over and walked right up to him, still smiling.

William had taken his hands out of his pockets and simply stared at her, almost with disbelief, then ran his hand through his hair and looked at the sky, then back at her. ‘You look very cold. Would you like a cup of tea?’

So formal, so very English. A disconcerting start, but he needed time to gather his thoughts. He held his feelings in so tightly she wasn’t sure what would happen, so she nodded; get the cup of tea out of the way. She followed him into the old house and up the stairs to his flat. Neither of them spoke as he opened the door. The flat appeared to be one large space with tall ceilings, polished floorboards, Persian rugs and books on every wall. A large desk, covered in paper stood in one corner, and behind an ornate Chinoiserie screen in the other, she could see a double bed. There was a small kitchenette and two lounge chairs by a gas fire. Surrounding the gas heater was an original Art Deco fireplace, and on the mantle piece a selection of Art Deco Gouda vases, a riot of colour and pattern.

Her eyes lit up when she saw the vases. ‘It’s just what I imagined when I first met you, only without the red velvet drapes and painter’s easel.’

He stood by the closed door watching her. She could see the pulse racing in his neck.

‘William,’ she chided, ‘there’s not a scrap of Bauhaus austerity in this room.’

‘Lily-‘

‘I’m sorry, I blather on,’ she said, looking back at the fireplace

‘Francesca gave you the address, didn’t she?’

‘Yes,’ Lily said, ‘You’re not cross, are you?’

‘It depends why you are here.’

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May 12th, 2010

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A few years ago, when I decide to write, I read an article on obstacles in romantic fiction. The author of the article stated that the writer must find an obstacle that will keep the lovers apart and fuel their desire. This obstacle could not be anything that could be cleared up by a good talk between the couple.

I remember thinking that most of the time obstacles in romantic relationships usually stem from not talking to one another. Lovers can avoid talking for many reasons – the assumption that the desired one should be a mind reader, or will judge the other harshly or probe for weaknesses. Or perhaps the lover doesn’t have the language to describe their feelings or would rather escape into a bottle or work or television instead of talking it out.

I‘ve been giving some thought to my male protagonist, trying to work out why he’s taking the stance that he is – which is basically not talking and subsequently letting his perceptions of his love relationship become wildly distorted. I look back over his life, (I know this guy pretty well by now), and see control has been a big issue for him and that he’s a linear problem solver who likes to act. When faced with a crisis he cannot solve, both in his work and relationship, what does he do?

He has a few drinks – that’s a given. He tells his closest male friend nearly everything, keeping the relationship stuff mostly to himself. He’s not going to go to see his girl and say ‘we need to talk’ because what if he did that, told her he’d never stopped loving her, but finds out that she has stopped loving him? Too painful, too humiliating, not doing it. Instead he’s going to do a Clint Eastwood and ride off into the sunset because his own heart scares him more than all the guns and outlaws out in that there wilderness.

What does she do? Tells her closest friend, has a cry, eats chocolate and examines his every word from the last six months for any hidden meaning she may have missed. Does she go and see him and say ‘we need to talk?’ No she does not. Because she’s angry and he’s a selfish pig and can come to her for a change.

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A good talk might have saved all the agony, but nobody is willing to put his or her cards down first. Not talking, for a host of reasons, is the classic obstacle for couples. Particularly now when divorce, religion, and social pressures don’t provide the external obstacles they once did.

Sebastian Faulks says in the introduction to his short biographical book, The Fatal Englishman, that when writing about real people he resisted the urge ‘towards unity that finds it’s best expression in fiction, when the events can be shaped and patterned to echo the themes, while characters can be made, within the limits of their realistic capacities, to behave in a way that adds further harmony.’ He continues by saying ‘The lives of real people, unlike those of fictional characters, seem to exert a small but constant outward force away from order.’

In real life then, my two characters, both too stubborn or fearful to sort it out probably move onto the next partner and do it all again, until there is no happy ending, just regrets, and eventually compromise and maybe a hint of wistfulness.

But, lucky for them, it’s not real and I’m looking for harmony and thematic unity. So my man stops on his way to the sunset and says to himself, ‘Hmm, I sure do miss her. Maybe she’s worth the risk. I’ll go back and see if we can talk it through.’ And my woman thinks, ‘I don’t mind doing all the emotional heavy lifting – as usual – I’ll go and find him and tell him how I feel so he’ll feel safe with me, and then we can talk.’

Most couples avoid having a ‘good talk’ until they are dragged in front of a counsellor or so much is at stake they can no longer avoid it. And I consider this to be an excellent obstacle. Not as exciting as the king forbidding such a union, or being separated by war and never losing hope, or even battling social prejudice to be together. Not talking is realistic, it comes from within the characters and therefore is within their capacity to deal with it, and thus allows for a vast landscape of psychosocial hills and gully’s for the novelist to explore.

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Sebastian Faulks, The Fatal Englishman, Vintage, 1997

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February 10th, 2010

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The first years of an undergraduate course in archaeology are as dry as a salt lake in a drought. This is how they filter the students. Those who understand the serious disciplines involved, and those whose heads are full of lost civilizations, discovery of.

Anthropology is the same. Years ago I joined the happy throng of first years in the Anthropology lecture hall at university, pen poised and eyes bright. But dreams of Margaret Mead type investigations of some isolated human group rapidly dissipated as the first half of the year was devoted to the study of traditional Aboriginal kinship systems. These systems are as complex as their material culture is simple, and for one such as I – firmly wedged into the unrealistic/daydream slot – quite a struggle to come to grips with.

I like the big picture, details trip me up and I increasingly found myself alienated from both subjects. As students it was driven home to us that archaeology is the study of material culture and any speculations on what the remains of the material culture may signify should be left to those who’d studied and worked for years in the field and were able to formulate educated, cautious theories as to what had happened and why. For example, it is impossible to truly know the inner world of a Neolithic farmer from the fossilised remains of wheat seeds.

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You are courting ridicule in the archaeological world if you do publish these speculations. Archaeology has aligned itself, in the last hundred years or so, with science and the objective observation model, (there’s a lot more to it than that, but you can read a book about it if you like). I have a lot of respect for that model – it weans out the charlatans who tell people the Pyramids were built by aliens or that Jesus really wore the Shroud of Turin. I like to use my imagination however, and rightly or wrongly, became wildly impatient with the pure, objective fact approach.

I came across the above picture the other day. It mesmerised me and I tried to find out as much as I could about it. The picture shows the skeletons of two individuals buried together around 5000 years ago near Verona at the base of the Italian Alps. They have been identified as adolescent by their teeth. These are the facts. Any other clue as to their identity, or the reason they were buried in this unusual arrangement has not been found. There are only the dry bones. Of course we can’t say who they were, but it doesn’t take much imagination, (by some of us less disciplined types), to see a very moving image of human love and tenderness.

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January 31st, 2010

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There possibly isn’t a woman in this country who does not have a difficult relationship with food. Flick through the women’s mags and you can see a dozen conflicting messages about women, their bodies, their role as mothers and provider of meals, their sex appeal, their health and their role as consumers. After spending serious hairdresser time with these mags I stagger out into the light looking groomed, but my mind is reeling. Of all the evils women must be on alert for at all times the number one is carbohydrates. This may change next decade, but for the moment carbs are as unwelcome as an ancient, incontinent dog on the carpet.

But Italy, Bella Italia, the vessel holding our holiday dreams and desires, is the land of carbohydrate – pasta, bread, gelati, and wine just to name a few. I don’t know the stats on this but from observation visiting Italy, (in villages and non tourist areas), you don’t see many fat people. The descendents of the twentieth century Italian Diaspora living here in Australia and eleswhere are far more likely to be carrying too much flesh. Partly because it was mostly famine plagued Southern Italians who migrated. And for them food had become not only important to live but was invested with huge symbolic significances that were hard to leave behind.

In many Italian communities visiting relatives is the main social occupation, there are protocols to this pastime and if you don’t know them it can become tricky. One is to eat everything you are given if you are a guest – it’s the host’s way of saying ‘you are a valued visitor and I am well off enough to stuff you to the eyeballs’. And if you are the host you must have on hand, at all times, enough food to show you are doing well and can participate in this social exchange. It’s a status thing and all cultures have a variation on the theme. Food is no longer in short supply in Italy, although some areas are still marked by struggle, nor in the US or Australia, but the customs continue, and if you take it all seriously, and wish to maintain a link to the homeland, you feed – and you eat everything offered to you.

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So this is one reason for the extra heft, the others are best left to the health planners, but I would offer another reason. One is the size of the serves. Italians in Italy eat small amounts of good food, like the French. In the south they eat masses of vegetables and grains, and pasta is reserved for Sunday or for a small first course before the meat or fish and vegetable course. And by small I mean maybe one and a half cups or less of cooked pasta. They drink wine with the meal – not before and not after. The younger ones might use other mind-altering substances but binge drinking is mainly the preserve of Northern European cultures and their once colonial outposts.

Having a strong culturally determined relationship with food means the forces of modern marketing and industrial food companies have found it hard to get a foothold in Italy. They will inevitably get in there and upsize everything, but the modest amounts eaten at meal times means that a gelati can be eaten and enjoyed in the heat for the evening without lashing ones self with a birch twig and drinking only sprout juice the next day

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I like pasta, bread and wine, but my favourite carbohydrate of all is gelati. I don’t like ice cream, it tastes greasy and rich. But gelati, which is milk or fruit based, is lighter and more refreshing. If it’s made with cream it’s not gelati – don’t be fooled. In Italy you can have a dollop of cream on your gelati but why you would do this I’m not sure. And in some cities you can have your gelati between two thick slabs of sweetened bread. This has to be eaten quickly I imagine and I’ve only ever seen young men eating this combination. These blokes are probably perpetually hungry, no matter how much they eat.

A famous American ice cream brand has recently opened its first shop on a beachfront in Sydney. I queued with a friend to taste this new and exotic substance but was sadly disappointed. It was just ice cream with a funky name, huge serves and a big advertising budget. It wasn’t one of those rare moments when you taste something and you know you’ll remember that moment forever. My first taste of the Fiore de Latte flavoured gelati from a small gelataria in the back lanes of Rome was one of those moments. And all ice cream and gelato subsequently will be found wanting – the price you pay for cavorting in carbohydrate Eden.

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